Happy Anniversary babe. I love you.
In some ways, this year's anniversary was like any other but in others it is very different. We talked on the phone last night about getting to spend time together this coming weekend, and doing fun things like going out for dinner. You sent me a text today to tell me happy anniversary and I replied.
In many ways this anniversary is very different for us. It's been quite the year for us. Maybe one of the toughest we've had since we started dating. A lot of tears have been shed, there have been sleepless nights, and begging to God. It's the first year where I actually thought that we might never make it to this anniversary. But here we are again and I am so glad.
I'm still scared for the future, don't get me wrong. Especially a future where we don't know if we will still be able to be together. A future in which we don't know where we will be a year from now much less three months from now.
These last few months together have been great though. Since I've been able to put the constant worry of the unknown future out of my mind and focus on the present, I've been able to enjoy our time together much more and I hope you have too. I've been praying a lot and asking God to help us through this and find our way. And I've found great comfort in the fact that if this relationship is meant to be then God will find a way and in the end we will be together. For now I hope we can just keep living in the present. After all if we just spend all our time worrying we will waste it all away. No matter what happens though, I know that these last six years have been worth it.
I don't know where I would be without you. You have given me many laughs, smiles, joys, tears, and a lot of other emotions. I didn't know I was capable of loving someone this much for so long. And I can only hope that this love grows stronger and lasts much longer.
I found a quote that was very fitting for us.
Distance is not for the fearful; it’s for the bold. It’s for those who are willing to spend a lot of time alone in exchange for a little time with the one they love. It’s for knowing a good thing when they see it, even if they don’t see it nearly enough. ~Oprah Winfrey
I wouldn't trade these last six years for anything. I still love you.